01 May If I’m not in control . . . who is??
Mama told me there’d be days like this.
Days that remind me that I am not in control. I’m not saying that’s a bad thing. But it’s an observation I’m not completely comfortable with, yet.
Don’t get me wrong, I don’t really want to be in control of everything, but if not me . . . who?
That day in July 2018 was a great lesson in going with the flow. I must admit that lessons are easier as I get older because the older I get the more I know that I don’t know very much and the more I realize I’ve been absolutely a control freak and no way to accomplish that insurmountable task.
A little background
My ex-husband and I founded and I currently run a spiritual healing center in Cottonwood, Arizona. It’s a magical city, I think about 12,000 residents which swells to 40,000 on any given day because of the bigger retail stores, gas stations, a Veterans Administration Clinic, a well-stocked Medical Center and . . . drum roll . . . a Walmart Supercenter.
Yes, there are many advantages to living here. We have a wonderful Recreation Center, with free weights, weight machines, treadmills, rowing machines, pool, lap pool, rock climbing wall, meeting rooms, and best of all PICKLEBALL AND TENNIS COURTS! One is that we have finally found our community. You see, my ex and I recently moved back here after living the life of touring entertainers for 13 years. . . 14 years without a bricks and mortar home, but 3 nice big comfy motorhomes.
But back to my story on control.
Out of Control
I was in charge of the Center this weekend. That means that in addition to what I do during the week to prepare, such as create the Sunday bulletin, set up our 25-30 slide PowerPoint perfectly timed with music, lyrics, short videos, our mantras, meditation music plus relevant images, videos or slides that our speakers might want to use, I also run the “platform”.
Yes, I’m da boss of Sunday Gathering and everyone knows it. 🙂
What would you do if you had 80-100 people counting on hearing the exciting author and former nun we had booked as our guest speaker . . . and she has to cancel 24 hours before . . .
I’ll tell you what you’d do, you’d start researching an appropriately related topic, read your ass off. You’d OCR some quotes you’d like to use and write like a maniac for the next 20 hours.
Yeah, I know.
Keep in mind that my ex was away at yet another training weekend, so he was nowhere in sight . . . (read “no help”). I called my right-hand person who assures me she’ll be there early to help me get set up. We were ready to roll, and I very comfortable, albeit a little sleep deprived. Things were unfolding beautifully, I knew the Universe had my back.
A Perfect Sunday
Exactly two hours prior to the start of our Gathering, I received a phone call. Our guest speaker was feeling much better and definitely wanted to speak to our group today. AWESOME! . . . . What? Oh shit! I just spent 20 hours creating an amazing talk (if I do say so). It was a subject I’m familiar with, “going beyond religion”. It’s a subject I feel very strongly about and was happy to speak about, too.
Well, of course, I was thrilled, and affirmed it was no problem. I told her we were all looking forward to seeing and hearing her.
30 minutes prior to the Gathering, in walks our guest speaker at just the right time. We have just the right microphone for her. We found just the right stool and podium for her. And she is as gracious as gracious can be.
Her message was just exactly what we all needed to hear that day. No one was the wiser of the temporary chaos as the Universe worked out all the details. Barbara Mayer, Author of Beyond Religion, and former Nun with her kind heart and brilliant mind, just happened to figure it out. Although she hadn’t spoken anywhere for a long while, she needed to go Beyond Religion into spirituality with us that day.
That’s what we do. We go Beyond Religion. Not in the way that we feel we’re superior, because we don’t. We simply go beyond religion into spirituality where we are all one.
You see, even though things seemed out of control that weekend, the Universe gave me a wonderful opportunity to “re-create” the Gathering that morning. Or I could say that while things seemed to be falling apart, they were actually falling into place.
No, I don’t want to be in control of everything, but it’s a good feeling to chill at the end of the day and know I don’t fall apart just because things don’t always go the way I’d like them to or the way I planned. The Universe always has my back.
So, back to my original question, “If I’m not in control of my own spiritual center, who is?”
Each of us, by our thoughts, beliefs, and our actions create our own reality. And THAT puts us squarely in the driver’s seat with a little bit of “not knowing zone” thrown in just to keep it interesting!
At the Center of Universal Light, we neither teach nor advocate that one religion, spiritual path, or belief system is wrong because whichever one you subscribe to is right for you at any stage you’re at.
Please visit our calendar page. Most of our programs and events are open to the public. You’ll find they’re as varied and fun as our group is.
You see, the trick is to not take life too seriously. Not to take yourself too seriously, not to take our “paths” too seriously, but to celebrate the uniqueness in them all.
Our group is, in many ways, a family of “spiritual misfits” or “spiritually ambiguous”. If this sounds like you, we’d love to have you visit us. We are usually easy to catch by phone at (928) 864-5230 or CULspiritualdirector@gmail.com.